You are not going in circles
You are making progress in a spiral. You do come back around to where you were at the start, since recovery and healing take time, but every time you come back around to that point you’re a little higher up because you’ve got more experience, more knowledge, and more strength.
You ARE making progress
white people be like oh my god what’s happening in ferguson is horrible I’m so glad my imprelatsic european country that colonized 3/4s of the world or white colony that gained independence and proceeded to kill off the native population doesn’t have institutionalized racism like those crazy americans
Asking for help is a radical act of self-support. It takes courage but the reward is immense.